A LETTER TO CONSCIENCE

Dear Conscience,

I know we've come a long way and you've been in my life for as long as I can remember but it's time for us to go our separate ways. You spring up from no where and dominate me, dominate my mind, my soul, often times my mouth.  But at this stage of my life, I will not be needing you anymore. I'm tired of you running the show. In the past, i felt this certain peace whenever you surfaced, you made me feel guilty whenever I erred and immediately, I straightened up every situation because i hated the guilt i felt.I was glad I did have you - Conscience.

However, there a million reasons why I will not be needing you in my life anymore. You too dey koba me, Yes, I said it! You've landed me in trouble a million times. Remember Juwon? Yes, Juwon my bestest friend, the only person in the world  that understood me. Remember her? Her bubbling laughter? Her crazy jokes? Well guess what?  I wont be hearing all that anymore. All thanks to you. I wish you never popped up at that very hour. I wish I  never told Juwon i saw Kayode  kissing her cousin at liquid lounge on Tuesday. That was the love of her life, he could do no wrong in her eyes, he made her smile, he was her everything. But you, yes you! had to surface, surface at a time i swear i didnt need you! You proved  yet again, you were way stronger than me, I couldn't even control my thoughts, let alone my lips. Now I've ruined everything for her. Her December wedding will no longer take place. But that's not what hurts, it's the fact she can no longer stand me, she said and I heard her clearly 'why did you have to tell me this?' I should have turned a blind eye and said nothing.

As if that was not enough! I've been the joke in my office for weeks. No one talks to me anymore, not even Moria, the cleaner.  My colleagues can't stand me, perhaps i shouldn't have told oga it was Mr. Kolapo that took her cold water from the fridge. You know very well how oga gets when she's upset? Mr. Kolapo was her scapegoat that day. I should have once again turned a blind eye. Everyone's been calling me names 'gbeborun' 'gbefila'. I hate this! I hate being the reject! These are people I'll be spending almost 10 hours with everyday.How do I fix this?

Conscience, there are so many other things you've messed up in my life. But right now, here's a few I can  remember. I will no longer let you push me around! Henceforth, you will cease taking over  my thoughts, my words and my actions! You shall have no authority over me, your reign is over! Find another heart to dominate, i've decided to go the other route! It seems to me that makes more sense!

Goodbye.

NB:This write up is fictional!

Some of you like me have learnt the hard way with revealing things to people, even to the people closest to you. You wish you never spilled because everything kinda backfired. So I ask, is it better to shut up and mind your business, or spill either way even though you know the news would kill the person? Please drop a line......,